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Wednesday, June 30, 2004

1st ting i heard when i step into sch was abt last nite's black out..haha..so weird lo.. last nite talkin on fone suddenly e fone had a noise...den line cut..den black out..den i tot was my house onli..my dad open e door..it was e whole block!! haha..1 whole stretch of block sia..my aunt lucky la..her block n some others dun haf..haha..den aft tt he called back..den i realised his area oso black out..his cousin @ serangoon oso.. haha..island wide man..heex..i still dun noe wat happen leh..haha..oh well..nv listen news de..heex.. wah lao..im stil slackin like hell man..haven study..argh!! hmm..dun noe wat 2 say..haha oh ya..juz wanna say..my o lvl chi die liao..confirm muz retake..unless my other sub is veri veri gd..nw dun noe hw..haix.. piano*gal >.< wat is urs will b urs..wat is nt urs..will nv b urs..

thinking of you @ 3:47 PM

Monday, June 28, 2004

thinking of you @ 5:17 PM

2day 1st day of sch..honestly..it didnt feel anyting..haha..juz like any norm sch day.. didnt felt like it was aft hols..haha..mayb cos we used 2 it le..haha..mayb a little la cos was tired..bt i managed 2 wake up in time..heex.. still havin a stupid headache man..since yest..haix..tink mayb it's migrain..pain sia.. den 2day had 6periods str maths..wah..stress..haha..3 for emaths..3 for amaths..plus tt headache some more..haha..they change our timetable sia..den become e hr per sub longer tml mornin 4periods str of emaths!! den wed..is 4periods str of bio!! die..sure slp de.. haha..bt i tink is do prac la..den fri 4 periods str of chem!! tink is do prac oso.. phy still ok la..3periods..aiya..say le..can die arx.. den they push forward e prelims..die lo..i haven even started studyin..haix..left 34 more days onli leh..n o lvl is like 112more days!! stress!! aft tt still gt theory 2 study..haix..bt nvm..i found ppl 2 pei wo..heex..i guess in life we dun always get wat we wan.. piano*gal >.< lettin go is sometimes e onli way 2 solve tings..though it's a painful way...

thinking of you @ 5:07 PM

Thursday, June 24, 2004

yest was a bad day man..haix..n guess wat? ya i failed my theory..oh well..expected..nw leh i dun noe wat 2 do..my parents wan mi take next yr..sae conc on studies 1st..true la studies impt..bt next yr aft o lvl..u tink i will haf e mood 2 study meh? it will b like a burden 2 mi..haix..y cant i even pass?! worse ting was i failed by 8marks!! tt time prac failed by 9marks..haix..all by a few marks lo..i honestly feel so..dun noe hw 2 describe oso..oh well.. 2day suppose 2 study le..sch starts next wk man..haix..yet im still slackin..wastin time i noe i noe..need 2 look on e bright side of tings..true champion r those hu fail bt nv quit..bt den sae ez..i nv seem 2 get over it..nv seem2 move on..hw can i? argh!! i so hate myself man.. beta stop here.. piano*gal >.< -lost of words-

thinking of you @ 12:50 PM

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

2day went back 4 eng lesson..didnt wan 2 go..haha..bt ended up gg den i didnt do e hw ma..haha..lazy do..den 10 i panic la..scared mrs tan scold..so i end up spendin 20mins doin my com..haha..cool onli 20mins..bt horx..i tink it was crap..so i doubt i can get gd marks 4 it..oh well..i nt plannin do arguementative essay anyway haha..2day go back oso sort of waste time..bt oh well.. sun was father's day..we went sonw city!!! 1st time been there.. haha..nice bt was super cold..my sis was reali shiverin..bt she ended up havin fun..haha..bt my dad didnt go in wif us..sad bt well no use forcin him..heex..den when Dragon Gate resturant eat came back so full sia..haha..was nice leh e food..if i was nt full i wld haf ate more..heex.. yest nite went watch Cedar sec sch concert..hmm..didnt expect my parents 2 let mi go sia..bt they say ok..or rather my dad..happy! it was nice..bt horx..i tink each grp presented 2 many songs le.. plus ppl kept askin them sing/perform anither song..den ya reali drag..till abt 10+ e best was e band man..they were great!! haha can u believe they were made up of 126 members!! haha..our sch band leh? *no offence* e choir was oso gd man..bt nt all of them smile oso ma..onli e members in front smile..den our choir always get scolded cos we dun smile..aiya..hard 2 smile n sing sometimes bt oh well.. piano*gal >.< miss u like crazy..

thinking of you @ 4:01 PM

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

yest aft..nat called 2 say gt meetin..den i was tinkin abt weather 2go or nt..cos reali veri fustrated..ecerytime they last min den pass down msg..oh well..in e end juz wanted 2 go..*it's so hard 2 b a naughty stud* den dis mornin was msgin other ppl c if they gg nt..den aud dar told mi it's cancelled..wah..den no1 tell mi lo..was quite fustrated la gd ting i haven go sch yet..haha..msg her..she didnt reply..sort of wonderin y..hmm.. mayb cos my network gt prob or wat ba.. hmm..yest say wanted 2 study..end up didnt..*as usual* argh!! honestly..i gt like tons of tings 2 study yet my brain still nt workin..dun noe where 2 start..my sci sub haven even touch a single ting..oh well..beta start soon..*y m i so lazy?!* piano*gal >.< moodless..

thinking of you @ 11:07 AM

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

*yawns* so tired nw..haha..hu ask mi lazy dun wanna take bus 2sch dis mornin..haha..den i woke up @ 7 den went back slp a little while more aft i changed n everyting..den was like e 1st stud in sch!! haha..cos my dad had 2 go work ma..den i lazy take e bus so left e house wif him..heex..spent my 1hr b4 lesson readin my bk..haha..*gd ting i brought it* =) im like so dead..2wks haf passed..nw is e third..i've been complainin abt hw borin it is when act i could haf studied..argh!! it always happens..bt oh well..hols ppl tend 2 slack even when they noe they cant..*tt's mi* oh well..tinkin of gg 2 revise a little n start on amaths hw..n eng..haha..all hand up next wk sia..im gg die..come more i dun noe hw do e amaths..oh well..shall crack my brain lata.. time reali pass veri fast..esp when u r enjoyin..den reality hits u veri veri hard when u realise u run out of time..as 4 mi..there's nt much time left..bt gd ting there's still a little bit of time..come 2 tink of it..i haf 2mths left 2prelims..haha..it will do mi gd..*nt tt i wan go jc 4 e 1st 3mths* juz wanna gauge my work fr there..hmm.. speakin of jc..still dun noe where 2 go..haha..oh well..c my results ba..part of mi tempted 2 go jc..bt horx..i dun reali like e 'studyin' life..i mean its so stress..true poly oso stress la..bt horx..im nt much of e hardworkin type hu everyday go hm study..or wateva..it's close 2 sec sch life..haha..some more i slacker..bt ya la..still muz c results den decide..heex.. piano*gal >.< in life we muz noe when 2 let go..when 2 hang on..*bt its so hard 2 let go!! =(*

thinking of you @ 12:13 PM

Monday, June 14, 2004

Amanda - If I Open My Heart To You It's still too soon to call it love I know it's more then just a crush we're getting closer every day and when you look at me that way all I can say Is if I open up my heart to you I just need to know you feel it too will you be the one to make my dreams come true if I, if I open up my heart to you I got a feeling this could be something I thought I never see you're on my mind night after night something keeps telling me it's alright so give me a sign..so Is if I open up my heart to you I just need to know you feel it too will you be the one to make my dreams come true if I, if I open up my heart to you You could be everything that I've needed but I can't take that chance till I know that you're with me till I know what your feeling till I know where you stand Till I, till I till I know where you stand will you be the one to make my dreams come true if I,if I open up my heart to you will you be the one there to help me get through if I, if I open up my heart to you

thinking of you @ 2:41 PM

Sunday, June 13, 2004

Amanda Perez - I Pray I pray to God I will never forget who u are You mean everything to me I love you I pray ohhhh I pray mmmmmmm (Verse 1) You were in my dreams before I even knew there was a you and me Now I can't wait to see you smile when I wake up each day it makes it worth while With the kind of love you plant inside especially with a heart so empty as mine All the soft tenderness is the one thing that I don't wanna miss (Chorus) I pray when it's time for me to say good-bye I'll never forget lookin in your eyes I pray that I feel your touch and that God doesn't forget our love I pray when I close my eyes I can still see visions of you on my mind I pray that I see you in another life I pray that you're still by my side Oh I pray (Verse 2) Everything that you've given me only comes in fantasy It seems like life goes so fast but in this life I wanna make it last (I pray) I hate that we live to die but only God knows why (I pray) We all have a purpose and to see you again will be worth it (Chorus) (verse 3) I wish that I could stop time I wish that I could rewind to the very beginning of every second of my life to ask God on my hands and knees to never let me forget all my special memories See I'm only promised today And if its my time to go I don't wanna the love of my life to ever fade away So one last time let me open my eyes to see what my life used to be like Oh God (Chorus) lyrics

thinking of you @ 6:06 PM

wat e hell..i wanted 2 keep those taggies leh..haix..den some stupid ass hole had 2 flood my tag board..so irritated nw..dun they haf anyting beta 2do? those taggies were meaninful 2mi lo..so hu ever u r..juz f*ck off!! si min: haha..nvm la..slowly figure out ma..dun haf 2 bang head..anyway since when i become ur jie? haha..bt nvm..i dun mind..heex.. pardon my bad lang above..was so angry lo..haix..oh well.. tml gt sch again..quite happy leh..heex..cos i did fin my amaths hw..plus did some notes on hist..heex..bt aiya..still gt so many other sub 2catch up on..hmm.. nth much 2 write le..tc every1..n imposters on e internet..pls..JUZ LEAVE US ALONE!!! piano*gal >.< bored 2 death..

thinking of you @ 3:58 PM

Friday, June 11, 2004

nu er: heyx..ya lo..so long nv c u le..mi haven been feelin tt great though..heex..read my blog?u tc oso worx..heex..muackx.. ying: i relink u le..tc! hmm..2day had amaths again..sianx..bt was ok la..hmm..tot she wun b comin den tot of gg her house gif her e ws..cos by mon muz hand in hw..bt she came..heex.. gt more hw sia..sianz..no mood do though..haix..haf been feelin so moody dis days..can nv get over it..unless mayb i go out n enjoy w/o feelin concious of e time n all..haix i hate it man..my frdz r almost everyday go out..bt mi leh?! haix..hw come everytime is i scarifice? im tired man..haix..i hate life..everyting i do also wrong.. my internet oso gt prob..wah sianx man..gt virus again..den some site cant get in..haix.. dun wan care le..i nv wanna live again.. piano*gal >.< i find no meanin 2 cont livin..

thinking of you @ 12:16 PM

Thursday, June 10, 2004

honestly..i dun noe wat 2 say..esp since i haven been doin anyting much..haix..i keep tellin myself 2 study..bt somehw i juz cant conc..nv could..sure i did hw n all..bt studyin?! wonderin hw m i gg 2 pass man..ppl keep tellin mi 2 af faith..haf confidence.. sure..bt somehw reality still hit mi hard on e head tellin mi if i dun pull up my socks, i'll nv b able 2 make it..sure, it hits..yet im nt doin anyting abt it..it sure sux!! wat's wrong wif mi man..i always complain n complain..yet nt doin anyting..i used 2 tink hw nice 2 b a teenager..can haf fun..haf a life..bt rite nw..i juz wished i was tt young innocent gal again..so tt i wun haf 2 tink so much..n hate life even more..cos i dun tink i even haf a life..or havin much fun!! cos somehw my mum still tinks im tt young innocent gal..argh!! sori..i juz had 2 shout out my fustrations..haix..oh well..no1 said life was perfect..i guess acceptin reality is hard.. piano*gal >.< hw many times did i tot of endin everyting?

thinking of you @ 11:53 AM

Monday, June 07, 2004

haix..another boring day @hm..so alone, though my sis wif mi..bt den i still feel alone hw come my frdz can hang out wif each other bt nt mi?! true if i compare i will nv b happy wif wat i haf..bt its juz so hard nt 2 get jealous..yest my dad say 'if u wan go out den sometimes can bring mei mei out oso lo..anyway she oso nt tt young le..'i was overjoyed..cos i oso wanna bring my sis out..juz tt i didn't tink my parents wld allow.. bt my mum had 2 dash my happiness..she say 'bt examz comin le..dun always go out..' haix do i ALWAYS go out?! wif them yes la..bt i wanna spend time wif my frdz oso rite? cant i? issit 2much 2ask 4?! i cant always stay hm, n study oso rite?! i wun study cos i will get sianx..no mood study..true mood is we find ourselves..bt..haix..argh!! 2day went sch 4amaths..was okok la..bt oh well..gt hw..haha.. k..shall stop nw..2depressed 2 write anyting le..will onli complain abt e same tings.. haix..tc every1!! haf fun during e hols..bt dun 4get 2 study oso.. piano*gal >.< sick n tired of e walls..

thinking of you @ 12:07 PM

haiz..another boring day @hm..honestly..i dun understand hw come my mum dun like mi 2 go out wif my frdz? yest my dad say 'if u wan go out den sometimes can bring mei mei wif u oso lo..anyway she nt tt young le' i was overjoyed..cos i a lot of time oso wan bring my sis out..i noe she oso wan..bt my mum had 2 spoil my happiness..she say 'bt exam comin le oso..dun always go out' wat e hell..i gt always go out meh?! wif frdz i mean..if she say yes den i gt nth 2 say..den my dad oso follow lo..say ya la..oso shld conc on studies le..bt get it str..if i cant even b happy wif my life, hw can i even wanna do well?! when i find tt life has no meanin..den i wun wanna do well rite?! i wun even bother..esp when i cant conc..cos everyting i tink abt is hw my life sux.. 2day went sch 4 amaths lesson..quite sianx la..haha..almost cant wak up dis mornin..sch reopen dun noe if can wake up in time nt..haha..hope so..heex.. k..i shall stop here..cos 2depressed 2write le..anyway tc every! haf fun in hols! piano*gal >.< sick n tired of e walls..

thinking of you @ 11:41 AM

Friday, June 04, 2004

emoxjoce: heyz..haha..cant rem hw i gt ur link le..sori..haha..thx..tt's like mi isn't it?haha..anyway tc ya?oh btw..hw did u find my blog add? haha..stay cool!! mel: hey..thx..same 2 u ya? haha..hope u will enjoy hols n study 2..heez..stay happy!! hmm..hw come other ppl get 2 hang out so often while im stuck @ hm?! k..mayb im 2 timid 2 ask my parents bt whenever i ask they like so unwillin 2 let mi..haiz..den i get so fustrated till i dun wanna go out le..*though i still go la* haiz..sometimes i dun noe hw 2 even ask my parents..scared they dun let..n haix..dun noe hw 2 describe my feelings hw many times i felt like im livin in a prison?! i cant rem..hw many times haf i felt so alone?! when my frdz r hangin out?! loads..when?! when will u all noe im nt tt young innocent gal anymore?! truelly im sick n tired..true u all do let mi out once in a blue moon..bt im tired of being tt perfect gal..well sort of perfect gal..or rather being tt gd sis 2 wei yi..juz cos she dun wanna go childcare doesn't mean i haf 2 look aft her rite?! ok..mayb its my responsibility as a elder sis..bt whenever i wanna go out plz dun make it so hard..true my result sux..bt i believe if u all let mi out i will still conc on my work cos i wun b upset wif my life le..haix..mayb im askin 4 much..bt stayin @hm everytime study wun help mi..it will onli make mi more unwilling 2 study.. piano*gal >.< -sadden- i juz wan some1 2 understand mi..

thinking of you @ 9:44 PM